NO wants me around I feel so worthless as trash

people are right no one ever wants me to be round or be my friend...I feel so worthless now.and I feel like I want to kill myself .. all mylife I put up with others not likeing me ...even I put up with them picking on me I'm sick and fed up with it..one more person who doesn't want me around or picks on me or post mean comments I will kill myself .. I'm not kidding..